This year has been a doozy, am I right? General consensus of 2016:
It was the worst.
A lot of good friends and family had serious struggles this year. And three people at my company passed away suddenly and unexpectedly. Strange to think I was almost the fourth.
I did have some uplifting news this week though. I was on the local news last Monday, and two days later I received a Facebook message from a person I didn't know. I started reading, a bit confused why this person was being so apologetic, and about four sentences in I read this, "See, I am married to the man that hit you...".
Well that was unexpected. The email was heartfelt and sincere, overflowing with her pain and struggle with what her husband did. I knew she was in the process of divorcing him from her police statement back in August, so I never blamed her, but oh man how she blamed herself. Halfway through the email, she mentioned that she and her three children had seen the news segment, and her son knew right away that I was the person his dad hit. He stood up and told his mom he wanted to walk the 5K with me.
(I'll give you a few moments to wipe the tears from your eyes)
I'll leave you with that, because it was a very touching and personal letter, but I had to share this part of it. They will be participating in the New Year's 5K, to show me they don't approve of their family member's actions. It will be a huge step in the healing process for them as well as for me. Hallmark movie material, right?!
It comes down to this for me, something I saw on Pinterest somewhere:
You are always responsible for how you act, regardless of how you feel. Remember that.
Life sucks...and sometimes sucks a lot...but you choose how you respond to that suckiness. Yes, it's not always easy to do. Crying is allowed. And screaming. Once in a while throwing things is appropriate (as long as it's not at someone). But then you've got to make a choice. I had to make that choice. Do I wallow in my pain and misery, laying helpless and completely dependent on other people? Or do I fight to put myself back together, physically and emotionally, and try to make some good of a bad situation? I chose the latter, and it has made all the difference in the world. I'd go as far as saying it has even eased my physical pain. The mind is a powerful thing.
And this song couldn't be more perfect for this Christmasy week:
Maybe This Christmas by Ron Sexsmith